Closure

Honestly, I don't think there is closure because we never got to see them again. Yeah I know that I've moved on and that I'm expecting but I still grieve. I feel that its something that never goes away. Yes I am happy with the man in my life but a part of you will always wonder where life would have taken you had he come home. The hardest thing for me was knowing that the day he walked away he had so much life, and for them to bring him back to me so cold, so still and with no life, that I will never understand. For me, that's the reason I will have no closure. I wasn't able to be there to help him, to give him that last kiss, to tell him i love him, I wish wish I could have done everything in my power to save my husband. Like my daughter told me, "Why did they take my daddy? Our daddy never would have done that to them. Our daddy was the good guy not the bad guy." People think they know what to say and they think they understand, they don't. I look in the eyes of my 3 year old, she doesn't know him or who her daddy was. She has all his pictures and we tell her the way he was with her. I see all the things shes doing and how much shes changed since he left. Our son finally got to play tackle football, daddy missed it. He wanted a son so he could have all those guy moments. My son still remembers going with him to home depot every Sunday and riding on those big silver carts instead of a basket. Our 6 year old still talks to him and still asks why can't he just come back to life so our lives can be normal..so really how can people expect there to be "closure." No matter where life takes us or how long it takes us to get there, we don't forget!